With all of that said, how can something this wonderful not be a good thing? Well let me explain. Over the last several days God has been whispering in my ear the same thing over and over again. "You spend more time talking about me, than you do talking with me..." OUCH! In all of the excitement of something new, something wonderful, something fulfilling, I somehow took my eye off of the prize. I lost focus.
Somewhere along the way I got wrapped up in "How many hits did I get today?", "Where are they from?", "Did they leave a comment?" I feel so ashamed. I feel like Martha when Jesus said to her,
"Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her." (Luke 10:41-42)
It's as if the Lord is saying to me, "Lisa, Lisa..., when did this become about you?" Man! I hate when that happens. Why do I do the things that I hate and not do do the things that I know I should do. Why am I so easily distracted? Like Martha, why do I still not choose chosen what is better.
I need to spend more time talking to the Father, not just about the Father. I need to crucify my competitive nature, my number counting, my insecurities, my flesh and follow the example of the Apostle Paul when he said, "I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." (Galatians 2:20)
Thank You Father for loving me. Thank you for giving me a wonderful outlet of expression. A place where I can brag about you and share how amazing you truly are! Thank you for all of the new friends I have made. Forgive me for allowing it to somehow become about me. No more counting. I nail it to the cross and leave it there. Thank you for your forgiveness and grace! Thank You for missing our time together and reminding me of its importance. Thank You for drawing me closer. Oh how I love to sit at your feet and worship! I love you! -Lisa